Sitting on the couch with life going on around me, glad I have nothing pressing to do and that little annoying ding happens, I reach over to grab my phone knowing someone just interrupted my night with an email that needs my attention. If you have issues with unread email you understand what I mean by this. You unlock your phone bored and expecting to be deleting some non-essential email but instead see “Your talk has been accepted for DerbyCon 3.0!” I instantly get excited (some of us are still new to this speaking thing) and my mind quickly runs rampant on what does this actually mean? A fast tweet gets sent that you got accepted because everyone knows nothing is real in life until you tweet about it . I fire off a quick call to Dennis Kuntz and let him know that our talk got accepted then I realize - What does getting a talk accepted actually mean?
The excitement quickly wears off to panic, especially as a new speaker you really start to wonder how do we measure up to everyone else, will people come to the talk, do our ideas have merit, do I care about any of the previous questions, and many other nasty thoughts. Then your mind goes through everything we have not done for the talk, we busted out a CFP and have an outline but no slides, we have probably 10,000 lines of code left to write, tons of architecture to setup, and the demos to screw up. Will the demo gods slaughter us? I better have a video! I can no longer say “I have plenty of time on this, the talk probably won’t get accepted anyways so no rush on the code.”
So I sit down to pound out as much code as possible, and all that goes through my head is what I have not done. I start up the music and blast it in my ears even though I realize you can’t actually drown out your thoughts and doubts. So I must solider on and what that acceptance really means is it just got real, no more time to panic, get your shit together and finish your research, code, ideas and practice your talk! (It also means I don't need to keep worrying that I had not bought a ticket yet)
I look forward to participating in DerbyCon 3.0 this year and look forward to the amazing talks and community that always shows up at DerbyCon. I make the commitment that I will buckle down now and get Dennis Kuntz to write all the code! I want to thank Dave, Erin, Martin, Adrian, and Nick and the rest of the DerbyCon team for making a great conference for a great community (We still have shit we need to solve in the community but it’s still pretty awesome).